Cherish every moment because they grow up fast!

I was looking at my son today he is just shy of 8 months. I realized he won’t be a baby much longer. It is amazing to think that this little being was once inside my body. I just can’t believe how fast the time has flown by. To watch his milestones is great but at the same time it makes me sad that he is growing up so fast. I am happy for the new stages but I find myself missing the old ones. I was talking with a friend the other day she has a 12 month old, she said that he is no longer lovey with her. That thought scares me what if my son no longer wants to cuddle. I just can’t bare the thought of that. I love playing with and holding my son.

I have recently had to restart school so now I have less time with him. This transition has been difficult for both of us. I just want to cherish every moment with him. How do you cherish every moment and get back to the outside world at the same time? I am so afraid that one day I will look back and think it wasn’t worth the long hours of studying. It will be worse when I get a job.

I guess I just want every new mother out there to understand when they say they grow up fast they mean it. My life has gone by so much faster since my son was born. Hold on tight it is a great journey but at the same time it happens so quickly you blink and a year goes by. I enjoy his little smiles and giggles and watching him manipulate objects for the first time. He took three steps the other day I was like oh no this can’t be happening he just learned to crawl. He hasn’t taken anymore steps I think it was a freak of nature he just seems too young. I have never loved someone as much as I love my son he is so pure and innocent. He brings so much joy to my life. He has given me another reason to do my best in this life and to be the best example I can be.

I feel sorry for his father since he is not here to watch him grow. He will be here in January. I just can’t imagine missing out on all his little precious moments. I know all mothers want to be the best mothers they can be. At the same time with a first child it is a bunch of trial and error.

I was just talking with my step mom today and confessed I would like another baby lol. Of course I would like to wait until my son turns two. Still the thought of being pregnant again scares me. I had such a rough pregnancy. I don’t like being pregnant at all. I have thought of adoption, though I don’t know what my husband thinks of it. The joy of raising a baby is so indescribable. I can’t begin to tell you how fulfilling it is to be a mom.

They say that your kids reflect you by 10. Meaning when I was a teen I was wild and crazy and my son will be 10 times worse. I really hope that isn’t true. I do find myself fearing those awkward and difficult situations that might arise. What if my child gets lost in the wrong crowd? What if he becomes an addict.? All those things scare me. I look at him and only see this perfect little angel. I hope that I direct my son in the right direction. I love him so much it will be hard to let go. I cherish him even more because there was a chance I might have not been able to have children. He is my miracle baby. To all you new and veteran mom’s out there don’t rush the cuddles and kisses and bed time stories they are memories you will miss for the rest of your lives.